I have been trying to journal since we took our trip to Tenn. in April... I haven't done it on a daily basis, but more when I have minute and want to write about something specific.
When I journaled about Mother's Day, I wrote that I didn't need to write many details because it was a day that I won't soon forget. It was a rough day. Freddy is in Tx, Steph didn't leave Orlando till the morning so that meant she wouldn't make it to church with us. Andy has been going to church, but he sits in the balcony behind us so we can't see him. That's fine, at least he's in church.... but on Easter, he sat with a family that is friends with us. That hurt me a bit, but I took it. This past Sunday, I half expected him to sit with the Hofrichters. He is close to them and has used Debbie and Bill as his 'parents' during the soccer season.... I knew if that would happen, I was going to have a very hard time dealing with it. Instead, I saw him come in and sit with a family that, in MY opinion, has been a huge influence in his odd behavior change and his moving out.... I couldn't stay in the service. Sunday School wasn't much better. The lesson was about Hannah and how her faith allowed her to give up her only son , Samuel, to God. She understood that he was a 'gift' from God and not hers. Ok, MOST of the time in the last 4 months I have been able to have that attitude. But it was too much on Sunday.
Well, he went to lunch with us. Mainly, I think it's because he wanted to see his sister. But it was a good visit... And he came by today and actually spent about 45 minutes with us. And he didn't act defensive or short with us. It was nice.
Have we turned the corner? Are we getting Andy back? I don't know. I hope so. But I know in all of this mess, God is working on MY attitude. He wants me to trust HIM for all things. He desires to strengthen my faith. So I count it all joy.
On another note, Mom is getting a PETscan. There are nodules in her lungs. We find out next Thursday when we go back to the doctor .
And last but not least, my poor husband went to the orthopedic doctor and got the news that he will need to have a hip replacement sometime between 18mths to 2 years. He is going to hold out as long as he can. Oh, AND when he came out of the doctor's office, he found out someone stole his hubcaps off his truck!!!!!!!!
I tell you, I am really worn out with 2009, and we aren't even half way done with it.
And to top it all off, Danny Gokey got "voted off the island"!!! All kidding aside, you and Fred have been on my heart and in my prayers. Hopefully 2009 improves fast for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to see situations and think if they only changed when God is actually asking us to change our hearts and our way of seeing things. I'm praying for you and the situations that are going on in your life right now. I just know they are happening because God is growing you to a stronger relationship with Him.
ReplyDeleteAs for Fred, my mother-in-law had both hips done and is feeling so much better since then. And the recovery period wasn't as long as she thought it would be. We love you both.
Anna, I know!!! I mean, how much more am I supposed to take?!! lol
ReplyDeleteMary, I always appreciate hearing from you... would love to get together for coffee or something this Summer!!
My friend,
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you with the struggles with Andy. Please know that you are a great parent and you ALWAYS did the best you could! Now, you give him back to the Lord and pray that he will return to what he was taught! You gave him a solid foundation, so hold tight to this truth...Proverbs 22:6
I love you friend!
Sheila,
ReplyDeletethanks! I miss you guys a lot too!!